Anything that goes with my mood

i do not know what to speak of, i do not know what to act nor i do not know what to think of better things that could come up with my mind.

i never realized it could be this stressful, depressing and it's like a sedation that changes to panic and nausea, And breath starts to shorten and heartbeats pound softer.

the adrenalin is ranging from high to low and low to high yet the nothing is really varying. Cause it caught me off guard, now I'm running and screaming.

i never imagined it could astray this distant although no matter how far it goes it keeps on seeking a path, direction in its point of origin.

i never thought that it could break me apart i keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart, but not this time. I won't try to philosophize!

It's better off this way, for all the dirty looks. I'm not okay. To be a joke and look, another line. without a hook. I'm not okay.

i thought I'm off free, but i was wrong, so wrong that insanity beats me up. I'll never make it on my own. I can never be that someone.

i can never have the urge for what I'm looking for, I can never have the courage to continue what I'm fighting for. I'm getting weaker and weaker as time goes by. and I pray for someone to get a grip off my dilemma.

It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again. I'm awake in the infinite cold. How I wish this would halt!

Honestly.
Emptiness have finally arrived! Words have more meaning, if they're said at certain times.

"Kasama kitang lumuha
Dahil sa‘yo ako’y may pag-asa
Ang awiting ito’y para sa‘yo
At kung maubos ang tinig, di magsisisi
Dahil iyong narinig mula sa labi ko
Salamat"

I'm sick and tired of everything.
My hopes are so high, that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me, so I die happy.

Broken this fragile thing now, and I can't, I can't pick up the pieces, and I've thrown my words all around, I feel so broken up, And I give up, I just...

I hear the ticking of the clock, I'm lying here the room's pitch dark. No answer on the telephone
and the night goes by so very slow. Oh I hope that it won't end though

i know nothing.
Welcome to the planet. Welcome to existence. Everyone's here. What happens next. I dare!

No one knows what it's like. To be the bad man. To be the sad man. Behind blue eyes. And no one knows. What it's like to be hated. To be fated to telling only lies.

"I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes
me want to come back home"

it's already 9:42 in the morning and I'm still not done with this blog. I suddenly slept off my computer is left turned on.

I can't think of anything else just to pursue this crap. I'm still sleepy and I'm not in the mood to day. I feel weak and all.

to be continued...