today i woke up so late, it was like past 11 in the morning, couple of minutes before the clock strikes 12. i was supposed to wake up early, early as in 5 or 6am in the morning to work out and do the things i have to do, indeed i did wake up between those time ive set, unfortunately im not in the mood to stand up and prepare for the day due to the coldness of my room, i didn't reduce the level of my thermostat. aw. there, so i stayed for an additional 5-6 hours in bed.
when i finally woke up, stand and fix myself, i saw my laptop turned on, i realize i didn't turn it off last night. i went downstairs and saw my food is already prepared by ate doy. I didn't want to eat rice so i decided to eat bread and ham inside it. i grab some fit n right in the frige and sat to watch tv programs. so i watched for an hour or more i think until i asked ate doy to prepare some lunch. I ate but after i went upstairs to work on the things i have to do. it was like past 2pm. but im not in the mood to work so i just emailed my groupmates on what to do. i decided to surf and surf and i said to myself and to my groupmates that we'll work when the sun sets, like past 5pm or so. but i think we formally started working like 6pm.
everything's messed up, jumbled, im using 2 laptops, kuya robin's net is disconnecting every now and then. so we turned down the conference so that everything will be organized and accordingly. it was hard really. talking to 2 persons at the same time, using keyboard. so i and kuya jr decided to use voice chat. while i and jacy decided to type. because jacy don't have speaker at the moment and her brother is using their laptop. so there.
we work and work and work. we're almost halfway finish on the intro and related lit. a couple of revisions and additional infos. and for the methodology we plan to make it when dian is available. so we decided to use agile methodology not spiral methodology. cause jacy said it's more appropriate.
now it's already 10:49 in the evening a couple of minutes before 11pm and im still not done with our background of the project. it's almost halfway done but still marami pa rin ang kulang. im again not in the mood to continue it cause if i will force myself, it might turn out to be a mess so i decided to blog all the things i want to blog, whatever blog. haha :))
my family is still not here, they went last wednesday to batangas, then to mindoro, then to boracay, then to caticlan-aklan, then finally to negros occ. For the first time, they didn't ride on a plane and it was their first time to take the cargo ship because they brought a car with them. awts too bad for me i dunno when will i be able to experience a long cargo/ferry trip. amps. i never had one. oh i had but it's only like 6-8 hours. i made a trip once like 14 hours but it's a road trip. while the trip to negros occ ff the batangas route is like more than a day. so there. but i think they're in busay. soo sad i never get the chance to join the escapade because of these damn painstaking studies! aw. haha :)) kidding. but it's ok there's always a second time. anyway, i might not enjoy the trip and just stay in the car because i think they took a cargo ship, ro-ro, roll-on roll-off not the super ferry. because they took the batangas route. and what i want is the super ferry so that i would definitely enjoy the trip. haha :)) they might be back this week or maybe next week. i dunno.
so now im just contemplating. thinking. set my thoughts on some matters that's rumbling in my mind. aw. i never get the chance to fix everything. :(( everythin's messed up and still messing up. double sigh....
im always thinking of things that's makin' me loose my concentrations on more important things like studies, families and friends. but i can't blame my thoughts and feelings, it suddenly passes by with a sudden gust of cold/warm wind. aw.
im currently listening to a korean song, it's a st in witch yoo hee. tryin' to find out if it's nice because kuya jr ask me to listen to it and find out what. well i find it nice though. but i like more other korean songs like the ost of full house and forbidden live or nine tailed fox sounds naruto isn't it? haha :))
okay back to writing. so where was i na nga? aw. haha amps. i searched for importand cds kasi. uhm ndi pala. aun basta naghanap ako ng mga cds. ndi ko makita dl nalang sa net. haha :)) kasalanan na naman un sa law at kay lord. pls forgive me :)
ayan ala nako sa mood to discuss the things na dapat nakalagay talaga dito. aw. ive been obstructed by some sort of something. anu kaya un? haha :))
toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooootttttttttttttt..
i have to sleep na it's 12:45 mn and i still need to go to church at 7am! awts too early. must wake up early.
if ever i will.. not??
next time nalng....
i might !!! haah :))
i never really had problems with this matter, it's just i dunno it turned out to be a problem lately. and now i have a lot more problem. i dunno what's wrong with me. it turned to be that im falling again. shux i can't believe im sayin this but im really stuck in the past. stuck with yanna. crap. why does it have to be this way. i tried to stop my emotions but it never halt. in fact it still continue to grow and grow. damn. oi para kay lora at ian at kung sinung friend/contact ko dito sa multiply shut lang kau jan! ehem. getting back... i never realized that it could be this worst. aw.. :(( oh well i just have to admit the fact that i still love her. hahaha :)) i made a crap of reflection for persef2 i dunno if i blog it. becos im suppose to blog all my reflections but im thinking ill just post it in blogspot. haha :)) im shy. awts.....
it's killing me grrrrr....
i don't need a girl!! haha counterpart of i don't need a man.... ndi pala girl woman pala.
haha jowk lang !! :))
maybe they were right, i have to move on. but how? where will i start? like from scratch? hell no!! amps.. tellin to myself that im not in love with here and im over it the fact that im lying to myself. pakshet naman oh!! cuts wrist nalng!!!. ----- nccra na ulo ko dito. haha. if ill do that im just foolin myself. no way. bahala na!! what tfh.
tapos academics pa. lmang na ata mga extra cur ko kesa academics. tama na to. resign na!! haha joke lang. :) kaya ko to 70:30 70% acads 30% extra cur yeah..!!!
i need a 2.5 up in calculus. please give it to me. puleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezzzzz!!
it's now or never. haha
how bout friends. well it's fine goin' smooth. friends who left, never came back but still they are there, they were good friends but not anymore. maybe just have to live our separate ways. thanks to them they became part of my life hoping it will happen again like in some movie saying "history has to repeat itself ata. i think from hp! haha :)) thanks, super..
friends who stayed, thanks rin. you stayed. un lang.
bestfriends i left, im sori but we have to part. we're living on diff worlds now. i mean we're so apart, no not that. i mean it just happen so quick i duuno why. but still you'll always remain my bestfriend until we learn how to get back together like the old times. :)
bestfriends who left me. ala naman ata. ahah:))
bestfriends at present. they were good. they were nice. i love them all. i trust them most importantly they are ohana! haha :)) wierd. they are there meant to stay with me forever till we grow up till the crabs learn to fly and the birds have claws. till the end of the world, until we die. aw naman. but.......... i dunno...
parang my something. hahaha. :__ hirap eh.. dunno how to express it.
i don't want to fool myself anymore. i mean basta. i don't know myself anymore, i think it's not me anymore, ive changed a lot and now im tryin my best to go back to where ive started to where i belong.
i can be that person but i dunno, i don't want to kid around, i ain't fooling no one. im at times but i don't want to be somebody else just to please my friends, just to fit in their world; to be so studious and tedious and responsible lasallian just to prove that im good, to be a dl i once have the chance i just lost it, to be somebody else, to be a good leader and many more, to be so religious and holy that everysong in my pc, cp, mp3 player and anywhere are hillsong and christian songs, everywhere i look i see lyrics and scriptures which pertains to those things, to listen to korean,jap and chinese songs, to go to parties, jamming and malls, to make a fool of other people, to be cool, and a lot more, to be sp active in lots of orgs, to be an officer, to make sacrifices, to be a faci, to make things against my will, to think of others and not think of myself, to prove something.. do i have to be like that just to fit in their world? ok im like that at times but the big question is that do i need to be somebody so that they will be more comfortable, more pleased with me?
mahirap. haha beleive me!!! :))
but it doesn't matter. well i dunno. for me it matters when i think of it when it reaches the top of my mind.
what else do i need to prove to make it right? just like a geometry problem, i need to prove it first to know that the statement is correct. the only difference is that both ends coincides, it can be proven first but it can be proven later.
i dunno where this blog would end? i dunno when this will end also. haha:)) crap!
haha. hindi ko na inisip ung makakabasa nito. bahala na kung anung comments.. sana good comments.. :)) aw ..
im currently listening to osts of forbbiden love aka gumiho wenjuh or nine tailed fox. i like it soo much. hehe :)) yan ung dinownload ko ksi diku makita ung cd nung sis ko dami kasi.
ui anggaling magkapantay ung dalwang smiley. haha anu ba yan! aw. indi pa ko inaantok awts.
must contemplate more.
to be continued...
when i finally woke up, stand and fix myself, i saw my laptop turned on, i realize i didn't turn it off last night. i went downstairs and saw my food is already prepared by ate doy. I didn't want to eat rice so i decided to eat bread and ham inside it. i grab some fit n right in the frige and sat to watch tv programs. so i watched for an hour or more i think until i asked ate doy to prepare some lunch. I ate but after i went upstairs to work on the things i have to do. it was like past 2pm. but im not in the mood to work so i just emailed my groupmates on what to do. i decided to surf and surf and i said to myself and to my groupmates that we'll work when the sun sets, like past 5pm or so. but i think we formally started working like 6pm.
everything's messed up, jumbled, im using 2 laptops, kuya robin's net is disconnecting every now and then. so we turned down the conference so that everything will be organized and accordingly. it was hard really. talking to 2 persons at the same time, using keyboard. so i and kuya jr decided to use voice chat. while i and jacy decided to type. because jacy don't have speaker at the moment and her brother is using their laptop. so there.
we work and work and work. we're almost halfway finish on the intro and related lit. a couple of revisions and additional infos. and for the methodology we plan to make it when dian is available. so we decided to use agile methodology not spiral methodology. cause jacy said it's more appropriate.
now it's already 10:49 in the evening a couple of minutes before 11pm and im still not done with our background of the project. it's almost halfway done but still marami pa rin ang kulang. im again not in the mood to continue it cause if i will force myself, it might turn out to be a mess so i decided to blog all the things i want to blog, whatever blog. haha :))
my family is still not here, they went last wednesday to batangas, then to mindoro, then to boracay, then to caticlan-aklan, then finally to negros occ. For the first time, they didn't ride on a plane and it was their first time to take the cargo ship because they brought a car with them. awts too bad for me i dunno when will i be able to experience a long cargo/ferry trip. amps. i never had one. oh i had but it's only like 6-8 hours. i made a trip once like 14 hours but it's a road trip. while the trip to negros occ ff the batangas route is like more than a day. so there. but i think they're in busay. soo sad i never get the chance to join the escapade because of these damn painstaking studies! aw. haha :)) kidding. but it's ok there's always a second time. anyway, i might not enjoy the trip and just stay in the car because i think they took a cargo ship, ro-ro, roll-on roll-off not the super ferry. because they took the batangas route. and what i want is the super ferry so that i would definitely enjoy the trip. haha :)) they might be back this week or maybe next week. i dunno.
so now im just contemplating. thinking. set my thoughts on some matters that's rumbling in my mind. aw. i never get the chance to fix everything. :(( everythin's messed up and still messing up. double sigh....
im always thinking of things that's makin' me loose my concentrations on more important things like studies, families and friends. but i can't blame my thoughts and feelings, it suddenly passes by with a sudden gust of cold/warm wind. aw.
im currently listening to a korean song, it's a st in witch yoo hee. tryin' to find out if it's nice because kuya jr ask me to listen to it and find out what. well i find it nice though. but i like more other korean songs like the ost of full house and forbidden live or nine tailed fox sounds naruto isn't it? haha :))
okay back to writing. so where was i na nga? aw. haha amps. i searched for importand cds kasi. uhm ndi pala. aun basta naghanap ako ng mga cds. ndi ko makita dl nalang sa net. haha :)) kasalanan na naman un sa law at kay lord. pls forgive me :)
ayan ala nako sa mood to discuss the things na dapat nakalagay talaga dito. aw. ive been obstructed by some sort of something. anu kaya un? haha :))
toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooootttttttttttttt..
i have to sleep na it's 12:45 mn and i still need to go to church at 7am! awts too early. must wake up early.
if ever i will.. not??
next time nalng....
i might !!! haah :))
i never really had problems with this matter, it's just i dunno it turned out to be a problem lately. and now i have a lot more problem. i dunno what's wrong with me. it turned to be that im falling again. shux i can't believe im sayin this but im really stuck in the past. stuck with yanna. crap. why does it have to be this way. i tried to stop my emotions but it never halt. in fact it still continue to grow and grow. damn. oi para kay lora at ian at kung sinung friend/contact ko dito sa multiply shut lang kau jan! ehem. getting back... i never realized that it could be this worst. aw.. :(( oh well i just have to admit the fact that i still love her. hahaha :)) i made a crap of reflection for persef2 i dunno if i blog it. becos im suppose to blog all my reflections but im thinking ill just post it in blogspot. haha :)) im shy. awts.....
it's killing me grrrrr....
i don't need a girl!! haha counterpart of i don't need a man.... ndi pala girl woman pala.
haha jowk lang !! :))
maybe they were right, i have to move on. but how? where will i start? like from scratch? hell no!! amps.. tellin to myself that im not in love with here and im over it the fact that im lying to myself. pakshet naman oh!! cuts wrist nalng!!!. ----- nccra na ulo ko dito. haha. if ill do that im just foolin myself. no way. bahala na!! what tfh.
tapos academics pa. lmang na ata mga extra cur ko kesa academics. tama na to. resign na!! haha joke lang. :) kaya ko to 70:30 70% acads 30% extra cur yeah..!!!
i need a 2.5 up in calculus. please give it to me. puleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezzzzz!!
it's now or never. haha
how bout friends. well it's fine goin' smooth. friends who left, never came back but still they are there, they were good friends but not anymore. maybe just have to live our separate ways. thanks to them they became part of my life hoping it will happen again like in some movie saying "history has to repeat itself ata. i think from hp! haha :)) thanks, super..
friends who stayed, thanks rin. you stayed. un lang.
bestfriends i left, im sori but we have to part. we're living on diff worlds now. i mean we're so apart, no not that. i mean it just happen so quick i duuno why. but still you'll always remain my bestfriend until we learn how to get back together like the old times. :)
bestfriends who left me. ala naman ata. ahah:))
bestfriends at present. they were good. they were nice. i love them all. i trust them most importantly they are ohana! haha :)) wierd. they are there meant to stay with me forever till we grow up till the crabs learn to fly and the birds have claws. till the end of the world, until we die. aw naman. but.......... i dunno...
parang my something. hahaha. :__ hirap eh.. dunno how to express it.
i don't want to fool myself anymore. i mean basta. i don't know myself anymore, i think it's not me anymore, ive changed a lot and now im tryin my best to go back to where ive started to where i belong.
i can be that person but i dunno, i don't want to kid around, i ain't fooling no one. im at times but i don't want to be somebody else just to please my friends, just to fit in their world; to be so studious and tedious and responsible lasallian just to prove that im good, to be a dl i once have the chance i just lost it, to be somebody else, to be a good leader and many more, to be so religious and holy that everysong in my pc, cp, mp3 player and anywhere are hillsong and christian songs, everywhere i look i see lyrics and scriptures which pertains to those things, to listen to korean,jap and chinese songs, to go to parties, jamming and malls, to make a fool of other people, to be cool, and a lot more, to be sp active in lots of orgs, to be an officer, to make sacrifices, to be a faci, to make things against my will, to think of others and not think of myself, to prove something.. do i have to be like that just to fit in their world? ok im like that at times but the big question is that do i need to be somebody so that they will be more comfortable, more pleased with me?
mahirap. haha beleive me!!! :))
but it doesn't matter. well i dunno. for me it matters when i think of it when it reaches the top of my mind.
what else do i need to prove to make it right? just like a geometry problem, i need to prove it first to know that the statement is correct. the only difference is that both ends coincides, it can be proven first but it can be proven later.
i dunno where this blog would end? i dunno when this will end also. haha:)) crap!
haha. hindi ko na inisip ung makakabasa nito. bahala na kung anung comments.. sana good comments.. :)) aw ..
im currently listening to osts of forbbiden love aka gumiho wenjuh or nine tailed fox. i like it soo much. hehe :)) yan ung dinownload ko ksi diku makita ung cd nung sis ko dami kasi.
ui anggaling magkapantay ung dalwang smiley. haha anu ba yan! aw. indi pa ko inaantok awts.
must contemplate more.
to be continued...
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